此时此刻,我在想什么?(What am I thinking at this moment?)

虽然现在距离本科毕业还有一个月不到,但我内心依旧充满着本科还没过完的热情。

旺盛的求知欲一如既往,甚至更加炽热,这几个月我想读完《高性能MYSQL》、《计算机网络》。嗯,先读完这两本再说别的吧。

最近,学习并搭建了Edge Gallery和其中一整套k8s的玩意,为了顺利解决搭建的问题,我读了不少k8s的内容。除此之外,Elastic Search和Elastic Enterprise Search也占用了我几天时间。话说,这几个月在学习并部署过好些技术后,系统部署这种事对我真的简单多了。而且,最近5G的内容也读了几本书,做了点东西,虽说是项目所需,但学到的东西感觉以后说不定就会用到。

此外,目前在跟着研一学长做研究生毕设,学长想整个狠活,我也相当感兴趣。虽然题目还在一起找。

说说生活上的事。

说实话,除了感觉好多还没学,好多都不熟练外,我真的好想学以致用,挣点小钱。虽然家里一如既往的支持我,但兄弟姐妹几乎都已成家立业。我还要继续学习,感觉真的在啃老,有点容易蔑视自己。起码挣点钱,做一个有存款的成年人。

至于被催女朋友的问题,论样貌,论才华,论情感,论哪一点我都太过普通,加之自己也没有动力去寻找,所以这种事还是搁置到未来吧。

有道是,不患无位,患所以立。我想只要现在在多学一点,多做一点,变得更有能力一点,许多问题大概都会迎刃而解。这也是我想对大一的自己说的,不要把时间投入到解决不了的生活小事上,要想样样都得到,就会什么也得不到。那时候的自己铺垫的并非一个光明的未来,我只想未来的自己不至于怪罪现在的自己就好。

现在干的活,学的东西,应该会铺垫好研究生匆忙的未来,还是这时间多学点,以后大概会轻松点。

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Although it is less than a month before graduation, my heart is still full of enthusiasm that I haven’t finished my undergraduate course.

My thirst for knowledge is as strong as ever and even hotter. I want to finish reading high performance mysql and computer network in recent months. Well, after reading these two books, let’s talk about something else.

Recently, I learned and built the edge gallery and a complete set of k8s gadgets. In order to successfully solve the problem of building, I read a lot of k8s content. In addition, elastic search and elastic enterprise search also took me a few days. In other words, after learning and deploying many technologies in recent months, system deployment is really much easier for me. Moreover, I have read several books and made some things in 5g recently. Although it is necessary for the project, I feel that what I have learned may be used in the future.

In addition, I am currently working as a graduate student with the senior student of the first graduate school. The senior student wants to do the whole hard work. I am also very interested. Although the topic is still looking for together.

Talk about life.

To tell you the truth, I really want to apply what I have learned and earn a little money, except that I feel that I haven’t learned a lot and I’m not proficient in many. Although my family has always supported me, almost all my brothers and sisters have got married. I still have to continue to study. I feel really gnawing old and a little easy to despise myself. At least earn some money and be an adult with savings.

As for the question of being urged for a girlfriend, I’m too ordinary in terms of appearance, talent, emotion and so on. In addition, I don’t have the motivation to look for it, so I’d better put it aside for the future.

There is a way, not suffering without position, so suffering stands. I think as long as we learn more, do more and become more capable, many problems will probably be solved. This is what I want to say to myself in my freshman year. Don’t spend time on small things in life that can’t be solved. If you want to get everything, you’ll get nothing. At that time, I didn’t pave a bright future. I just want my future self not to blame myself now.

What we do and learn now should pave the way for the future of graduate students in a hurry. It is better to learn more at this time, and it will probably be easier in the future.